:(

I'm happy, don't get me wrong?

But I there's a part of me that wish this whole thing never happened

That I never made it on exec 

So that I wouldn't have to hear of the frustration, the bitterness, the sadness, the negativity that seems to be oozing out of every single corner

So that I wouldn't have to see my closest friends cry, to see them get mad at me, to see them contemplate on how one rejection characterizes them as someone they're not

So that I wouldn't have to deal with all this crap getting thrown at my face

But it's done, it's set and stone and ready to go

So I guess I have to be okay with it

Or at least pretend to be okay with it

Because someone has to be strong and maintain a positive attitude

Someone's gotta do it

And although I don't feel like it right now, I'll do it

Someone's gotta do it

It just breaks my heart to have people I know and love angry and depressed

It makes me angry and depressed to see them like that

It's not fair, it's not right, it's shouldn't be that way

I wish people didn't care as much

So the hurt wouldn't be so severe

So that everything would be just fine

Pretty pretty please with a cherry on top?